Something about a fresh start seemed appealing; it made me feel anew. I may have mentioned this in a previous blog but this is something I’ve been thinking about for awhile now. I don’t like to do things prematurely so I pondered on why I wanted this new adventure. In the three years that have passed, I have reflected on what I wanted more in life—- that’s inner peace.
I felt my inner peace was snatched after being exposed to variety of energies that required so much attention that it was beyond from what I could handle. So much was being thrown at me and I didn’t know how to properly workshop through those emotions and it left me exhausted. I was at a crossroads—- it was the first time I didn’t know what to do. My mind was rattled, my soul felt contaminated, and my happiness depleted . I was running on autopilot. I felt invisible.
My “invisibility” left me to feel not wanted with no will to carry on. From there, I wished to be somewhere that was unknown yet familiar. I didn’t want to know anyone if no one wanted to know me. Little did I know, the moment I spoke those words, I would be reconnected with a few people that wanted to know me and be connected to me. My fresh start was just beginning.
Leaving the negative thoughts behind yet reflecting oh how those interactions could have been handled differently, I began to sabotage myself from starting over. I was scared, nervous, frightened but the light began to show when I took that risk and opened myself to new opportunities and new beginnings.
My soul was recharging. It felt seen! I overcame obstacles, I laughed harder than ever with people who care about me just as I do them. This feeling was so refreshing that I didn’t want to come down from the high. Soon, it was over but the memories made a lasting imprint on my life and made me feel the best I’ve ever felt.