Do you care about other people’s perception of you? Do you find yourself constantly at the center of people’s judgement? If so, I can relate.
Prior to today, I was constantly changing myself to fit the mold of what other people wanted me to be. Living in a constant state of anxiety was exhausting yet a crucial part of adolescence when choosing which social path to take in life. In hindsight, I see that it sets us up for patriarchal success but it’s a lot of work to do because of the grooming one has to go through to be part of and accepted in social circles.
At the age of 25, l get why perceptions are important because they intertwined with our identity but at the same time I don’t really care. The reason I don’t care is people usually create their own idea of you and when you don’t meet their criteria, you somehow become the bad guy/ always disappointing them because you’re not what they thought. I’ve been on both sides of this BUT I like getting to know people for who they are and NOT for what I want them to be for the simple fact that I’ve let several people down for not being what they want me to be. Did that make sense?
I like solitude & peace. I’m a homebody. I laugh for no reason. I smile because I’m thankful for life and breath in my body. I’m appreciative for the things that I have. I earned, work for, and deserved the things that I have.
Take-a-way: Strive to be a better version of yourself than you are today. It’s a marathon, not a race. Reflect on your perception whether it’s positive or negative and figure out why it’s that way. If positive, what makes it positive? If negative, what does you environment look like? Who’s the parasite in your inner circle? Is it time for a change so that your outlook on life and perception to other can turn into a positive viewpoint? Ponder on those questions.
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